Temporarily discontinued account

This account is no longer in use, please unfollow me guys.
Thanks bye.

doomslock:

hahahahayou know those times when you think about your future and the thought of not doing what you want to do rips you apart inside

For future reference, i’m very sorry if I bothered anyone with my whining. I’ll keep my bad thoughts to myself from now on and stop complaining.
Thank you to people who were at least a little friendly and polite, unlike that anon. Who BY THE WAY I know who you are now and I WILL report you. Just so you know.
So yeah…sorry everyone. uh, you can resume your scrolling now. ._.



I might go away for a while.

Anonymous asked: Everyone has fucking problems, stop filling up my dash with your whining. In case you haven't noticed, no one gives a fuck. The last thing the internet needs is another suicidal whinny bitch. Go end yourself quietly and out the way and stop spreading misery around tumblr. I'm unfollowing you, I cant stand whiny miserable people like you.

That seems kind of harsh geez! ._.
I just wanted someone to talk to man. Wtf I’m not even being suicidal!
I’ll find out who you are when you unfollow me, and report you btw. Telling someone to go and end themselves is just cruel. And you are clearly not a very nice person. And the fact that you’re hating in anon makes you a coward.
Either way, I appreciate that someone actually noticed I exist here, so thanks for that at least. I very rarely get anons or anything as it is. But at least I know someone is out there and actually reads what I say, even if they dont like it. So at least i’m not completely insignificant.
So uh…yeah. I dont care if you unfollow me either. I dont even know who you are. v(-_-)v
In fact i’d rather you never followed me at all with that kind of attitude. Good riddance.

I think I have decided that I really dont like tumble anymore. With people like you around, the internet is as miserable as real life.

…I know at least seven of my followers are online. I can see you all posting stuff.
If even one of you wants to talk….I mean we can talk about anything you want IDEC. I just really need to talk with someone. Just for a little while. Please. It would mean a lot right now. I’m alone and not coping very well and it would really help just to know that there’s someone out there who gives a damn. Please…

I know I mean nothing to all of you guys. I mean, I dont think i’ve ever spoken to any of my followers. I feel like i’d bother people so I dont like to talk much.
But right now I just really really need someone to talk to. Anyone. Even if i’ve never spoken to you before. Just, please.
I know every single person on the internet has problems and issues and needs moral support. And I know I dont deserve to be noticed amongst the sea of pain.
I’ve just had to deal with a lot of stuff. I have all these medical problems, have all my life. But I still had hope and stuff. I had good friends and a loving family, I even had a girlfriend, everything was okay, better than okay it was great. But suddenly everything is just wrong. My parents want to get divorced, my dad is getting violent towards me and my little sister, my friends are all depressed and upset and are now keeping their distance, there’s all these nasty people at school and on the train and stuff, and my medical condition, which I thought was getting better, is apparently not, I have to go in and have surgery soon again. And My girlfriend is going to dump me when she finds out. She cant cope with me being in hospital all the time, it upsets her and I hate that I upset her. She’s so stressed out and it’s all my fault.
I feel so lost and hopeless at the moment, like I wish I was never born. I’m no use to anyone really. I just…I dont trust myself. I dont want to get dragged into depression. I was depressed once, a long time ago, I even used to hurt myself. I dont want to fall into that again I really dont. But I’m just scared I’ll get sucked back in.
I cant talk to my friends, they have enough to deal with of their own and my family have made it very clear that they dont give a crap about my feelings. I dont know where else to turn, so that’s why I’m here.
Please just…I know no-one will take the time to read this. I’m a very insignificant person… But if anyone is reading this, just please, I just need to talk to someone.

This is turning out to be one of the worst days of my life, I feel so heartbroken. I hate hospitals and I hate people and I hate my family and I hate everything that is outside the internet.
I need a hug.